A new beginning

I know I'm late, but still, happy belated new year sweets! *hugs* First post of 2012, just gonna do some random updates about my life lately. Does anyone happen to be looking forward to my 18th birthday celebration + USS trip post? I'm sorry if you are, because I won't be blogging about it anymore :-( What's passed is past, it doesn't feel good talking about it and bringing it on to a brand new year yup? For those of you who have been following my twitter updates, you guys should know what exactly am I talking about. While for those who didn't, I guess the hint is obvious enough already? And what chu waiting for?! FOLLOW NOW LA, HA HA.

I'm pretty surprised and proud of myself for being so strong to overcome this alone without having to lock myself in the room crying for 3 days straight or whatsoever like I thought I would. A big thank you to whoever that has made effort to cheer me up and all, I'm really really fine yup ☺

Ok apart from that, there's no other better word than BORING to describe my life now. Have been spending time alone or with my fam, friends are almost all too busy for me :/ Hopefully somebody would bring me out to party soon!! Aiya I know I sound like some mountain tortoise la, but you guys can't blame a new born 18-year-old like me right.

Oh ya, and I finally FINALLY attempted to do my first vlog! It wasn't as good as I wanted it to be but yep, I tried my best. Practice makes perfect so I hope I'd improve more in the near future? Hehe. For those who have yet to watch it, here it is:

If any of you has any idea/suggestion on what you want me to vlog about, do formspring me k! My formspring is located at my sidebar. And do follow my twitter too ^-^


So that's all for now I guess? Hopefully there will be more interesting occurrence in life for me to blog about soon. Shall end this post with two 2012 photos of my fat face (though I still look the same), le bye!




2012 resolution? I just want to be happy, nothing else.


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"The words that you whispered for just us to know, you told me you loved me so why did you go away?"
"Never thought we'd have a last kiss, never imagined we'd end like this."
"Your name, forever the name on my lips."
"So I'll watch your life in pictures like how I used to watch you sleep, and I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe."
"And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day, and something reminds you you wished you had stayed."
"We can plan for a change in weather and time, I never planned on you changing your mind."
"All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss."

No we aren't friends, we're strangers with memories.


xx

The toy

Today, I told him the story of "the toy"..

Listen to this music while reading kay ^-^


Whenever you throw the toy away, you'd miss it's existence after you have done so.
You'd regret, and go back to pick it up again.
If you're lucky enough, it'd come back to you in a full complete piece.
But sometimes, life is unpredictable.
You wouldn't know what could happen to the toy throughout the period of time you've abandoned it.
It may be damaged, it may go missing, it may be picked up by someone else..
Or maybe, you'd still be lucky enough to get it back.
But it wouldn't be in a full complete piece anymore..

You adore the toy so much.
But just because of your temporary feelings or anger, you abandon it without hesitation.
Only when it's no longer with you, then you'd start to miss it's presence.

早知今日何必当初？
Why not treasure it in the first place?
And instead of treating it as a toy as it is, why not precious it more and treat it as a gem?
Not every time you'd be lucky enough to get it back.
Or rather, get the full complete piece back..

Remember, it was originally complete when it was first yours.
But because of you, it might never be the same anymore..

And it may have gone missing or picked up by someone else.
But if you make the effort to search for it and get it back, it may be yours again.
If so, whether to continue mistreating it or treasure it for real, you should know yourself..

- michellewxt


P/S: If any of you ever feel that you could relate yourself to the story above like I could, I just wanna tell you guys that you're not alone. Be strong, you're much more worthy than what you yourself think :) xx

In another life, I would make you stay.

1. The mate from a past relationship or friendship who, in the present reality, seems the ideal match.
 2. The person dated casually, but never seriously, who could have been more.
 3. More broadly, any love regret More apt: A One That Got Away.
xx